GimMie ThE CaSh

I have incorporated the cash envelopes for a couple of months now. I would say that this month was the best I have done thus far. Meaning? I didn’t take the cash to spend it one something it was not intended for!!!

I am a drunken sailor when it comes to have any bit of extra cash…even if it is just a dollar, I will find something to purchase. It feels like a monumental accomplishment to have something left over at the end of the month. This is one baby step I am happy to get to.

Observations from this challenge. Leave room for adjustments. Leave the envelopes at home. Again, leave the envelopes at home. I think that worked the best for me. I was able to save the cash for the specific reason it was set aside for. Also, it will allow me to set aside the money for upcoming obligations i.e. car registration. This contribution to the savings account makes me very happy.

I will check in again at the end of May to see I did with the next installment. Here’s an inspiring article on using cash envelopes. 

au revoir!

MoVIng On

I didn’t get to the park as I promised I would do. I drove there and some people decided to have some kind of festival instead…rude! I did however, get a chance to sit down and get some thing written down which made me feel so much better. Whiney post aside, it was cathartic to get it out of my head. I always say, if you have something nagging your brain, write it out.

There are times when I have so much I want to do that I tend to jump in with both feet forgetting to check how deep the pool is. This weekends ‘write it all out’ really helped get the creative juices flowing but I also feel a bit less jumbled.

I am having a blast working on this blog and that has given me a new passion to play with.

Which brings me up to the lesson from the DailyOM course I have been taking. The premises of the lesson was to write down twenty things that made you happy. My list made it to eighteen. In it are things like, yoga, movies, reading, hanging with friends, taking Hermione places, and a few more random things. The goal was to pick one of these things and do it.

So I took my fluffy little dog out shopping for her BFF’s belated birthday gift. We picked out a little toy for Minnie who’s birthday was a couple of weeks ago. Her mommy had been sick and forgot to tell me until recently. She picked out a little teddy bear toy and then wanted snacks. Yea, just like her momma!

Of course there are a few photos.

au revoir!

RigHt HeRe, RIgHt Now

while sitting at my dining room table….I have decided…it’s time for a midlife crisis!

As defined by Wikipedia ~

Midlife crisis is a term coined in 1965 by Elliott Jaques describing a time where adults come to realize their own mortality and how much time is left in their life. [1] A midlife crisis is typically experienced during the midlife transition when they realize that life may be more than halfway over. Sometimes, a crisis can be triggered by transitions experienced in these years, such as andropause or menopause, the death of parents or other causes of grief, unemployment or underemployment, realizing that a job or career is hated but not knowing how else to earn an equivalent living, or children leaving home. People may reassess their achievements as compared to their goals. The result may be a desire to make significant changes in core aspects of the individual’s day-to-day life or situation, such as in career, work-life balance, marriage, romantic relationships, large expenditures, or physical appearance.

The course that I am taking through DailyOM has really opened my head to what I am passionate about and what is my purpose. I am deeply dissatisfied with being a cube monkey, my health is less than fantastic and I haven’t been on an actual date in what seems to be 100 years. (Ya know what I mean, right? The kind in where I am picked up at my door, taken to dinner, a movie and taken home with a polite kiss on the check…hanging at your place watching TV is not date!)

So what is it going to take to get to a place of wealth, health and totally in love??

I have no fucking clue!

Do I sell everything, find an Airstream and live off the land with my cats, dog and pygmy pig named Bacon Bit??

Do I sell everything and find a smaller, more affordable place to live? Pay down my debt? Be more frugal?

Do I find another mindless, cubicle job or become a virtual assistant that allows me to keep my own hours and work from home?

Do I continue to blog?

Do I? Do I?

So many frackin questions.

I do pray about this, don’t get me wrong. I am on my knees asking for the right direction.

And there has been some tidbits of direction…the road map is just a bit foggy.

I am allowed to have this. I am not in a relationship, have kids or take care of a elderly parent who can’t take care of themselves. If I were to die tonight, my family would have to come in here and sell my things. So why am I hanging on to all of this?

Again, i have no fucking clue.

So here I am, ending my post, while pondering my goals. I am going to start by removing myself from my home this weekend, getting out for a long walk in a park somewhere, with my dog in tow, bottle of water, pen and a notebook. I am just going to let the fresh air and sunshine fill me up and just write.

Maybe, from that, I can get a grip on this nagging discontentment and get some things in motion.

Sounds like a good plan! Right?

au revoir!

PaSSioN & PuRpOSe

Just a week ago I posted about how I felt blah and down in the pit of Woe is Me. I finished my weary post and began the daily task of going through my emails and eventually found myself looking up courses with DailyOM. I have taken quite a few courses from them and have walked away fairly happy with what I have learned.

The Universe always has a way of bringing you what you need or looking for. I choose the course Live the Life You Are Meant to Live. It is an eight week e-course on Passion and Purpose. So for the next eight weeks are so, I will be blogging about what I am learning and any other introspection’s I can muster up.

My “homework” this past week was about delving into the child I once was and remember what brought me the most joy in my life. With a guided meditation provided in the course I remembered the joy I had learning the xylophone in grade school and being in drama class (in junior high, the high school version was a total nightmare). Other things I remember was playing secretary, being outdoors (like bike riding) and dancing, lots and lots of dancing.

None of these seem to have a part of my life right now, except music maybe. Listening to it, not playing.

The suggestions that came of out the first sessions was to try new and novel things each week (this week was cooking a new recipe), allow for any outcome (kinda, try it and see if ya like it), sit with the discomfort (don’t let the difficulties discourage you), stop planning, just do (Yikes!) and most importantly, HAVE FUN!

The last few days have been exceptional. A recent visit to my doctor and new supplement has me feeling more energy than I have in months. I feel awake again and excited. That is what passion is all about, having a zest for life. My zest was missing some glitter for sure.

Though I don’t see xylophone lessons in my future, I do see a passion for creativity and entrepreneurship brewing. With those two things there comes the novel new things to try, allowing for any outcome that it brings, learning and trusting through the discomfort and having fun.

What are you most passionate about?

Au revoir!

StEp AWaY FrOm ThE CrACk!

I am the first to admit that the internet and TV are my source of crack. I will spend countless hours watching fluff and pinning to my hearts content. I do this because I don’t have to deal with my current reality. Namely, working hard for a nameless bank where my I do is more important than my IQ and dealing with the fatigue issue that has seriously impeded many aspects of my life. Including growing a business.

JJDouglasPaperCo officially has had no sales, zero, nilch, nada. It is something that I am completely responsible for. I have plenty of down time to sit in front of a television because I am tired but there seems to be no energy for growing my business…what is up with that?!?

It is already the middle of the month and my goals for April have not been addressed. This month is for me to work on my branding and social media. Ummm…take a look at my Facebook page, see me making use of my social media?? Gah!

So what do to, what to do?!? First and foremost, my health is Priority One. However, being lazy is just an excuse. I am going to fall back on some good old fashioned time management skills…my kitchen timer. There is a lot that can be accomplished in thirty minutes. Whether it is cleaning, blogging, reading emails or listing completed projects on Etsy.

And for goodness sake woman, step away from the TV!

Any suggestions out there blog world?

Au revoir!

BlAh, BlAh, bLah

My posting has been waning the last couple of weeks. With increased responsibility at work and trying to keep my life in order, I have been exhausted. It is already the middle of April. The weather in Arizona has been gorgeous though! I spent a part of this morning, playing with my flowers and soaking up the sun’s rays.

There are so many things going on in my head lately that I can’t tell if I am coming or going. Feeling a bit discontent.

I hope to work this out over the next few days and get this blog rolling again.

au revoir